Malnourished

Despite the times we killed countless trees with our tears 
Despite the secret conversations between the bookshelves in the library 
Despite the dances we had to the sound of washing machines 
Despite the times we stared at the clear sky under the stars wondering about life 
Despite the songs I listened to that made me think of you 
Despite the little moments during my day that reminded me of you 
Despite this 
Despite that 
Despite everything 

If only you could take a step into my heart 
If only you had the chance to read the letters you never will read 
If you received a signal every time I thought of you 
You would be constantly electrocuted by my love 

Sitting in a cafe here I am 
Compare and contrasting everyone to you 
And yet not once have I come across someone nearly as you than you 
I catch myself convincing myself that that is a sign 
Of god telling me that it’s meant to be 
But
If you dive deep enough into my heart 
You will realize that there is no god talking 

Your touch was as strong as a mother first touching their newborn 
Your smile gave me more happiness than my own 
Your light was at the perfect angle in that I was able to see for the first time in forever 
Your warmth was so new to me that it gave me the chills 
Your love was food for a malnourished child

Hopeless 
Cold 
Barely living
And hungry 
I am a malnourished child 
I am malnourished for your love