Master

I often compare myself to a man of comedy,
I make people laugh but that's my anomaly.
Usually I keep to myself and I rarely talk,
now I've become someone people laugh at and gawk.
I do it on purpose you see,
to get people to notice me.
To make people laugh and smile,
makes me feel better for awhile.
I started hiding behind laughter,
because my fear and pain I cannot master!