ME

     I cry to think that I never thought this life through. I curse I throw everything at you. The sarcasm you've always known to be me,was me hiding from the reality of what I didn't think through.

     This scary reality that is now my life of shame. I lay down at night just to wish my life away.

     I don't know whats real ya'll say all I do is blow up but in my deceitful mind I have to say to you, all you do is bow to what they say

     I reach up and fight for my world,of my unknown to which I still don't know if its false or not.

     My world my mind it's all the same to me. Just sitting in my delusions of truth. I laugh at the rest of you for not listening to me. Now you all will fear me when my delusional world is real.

     As I walk before you with my head held high and my voices telling me what to do. Once again I laugh at you when you fear me because you don't know what Im going to do.

     My bitching my throwing fits is my comfort to push through this crowd of hell. You scare me in your comfort as you sit hiding in a corner shooting yo your dreams. So no one will see you roll down down your sleeves and look up at me. Now your delusions become real for you.

     I see your eyes penetrating me with the greenest of envy ever known. I stand strong over you and as you still fear the voices in me, but strange enough you would rather be me the one starring down at you.

     Yes to be me, the one ya'll feared delusional me