me against me

I'm use to the pain
Its happiness that's strang
But if you never see the sun
You would be happy with the rain uncomfortable being comfortable
And I hope that will change
But I don't know what to do
But go insane
Because
The devil keeps on talking
Words are getting darker
Try to ignore him
But its getting harder
The pull is getting stronger
And I'm getting weaker
Pain was always there
But its getting deeper
always been a truth seeker
But there's comfort in a lie
saying everything is alright
Hiding the pain inside
Lord knows I tries
trying not enough
When all the ills in the world can tie u in a bunch
It's not fair but lifes not
Struggling through the day looking for a bright spot
Mom use to drink the pain away
To get her through the day to day
Demons never stayed away
So why not