Memoirs of a Dead Poet

There once was a memory of flesh and blood,
There was once a beating heart that I devoted to love,
An icy hand held my chest as I fought to breathe,
It filled my lungs as I felt the soul in me cry for relief,
The blade of sorrow whispered into my persuasive ear,
Tempting me to allow it's sharp seduction to draw me near,
My snow white skin began to lose its warmth of life,
My body so still lay frozen in fear of the treacherous night,
It speaks to me in my own tongue, wearing the same mask as I,
The realm of darkness touched my heart, crushing it in no time,
It left me with an emptiness that I could not create myself,
Depths undefined took over the one emotion embedded within by someone else,
It left me unloved, abandoned by the hope of surviving this cruelty,
Tortured by an unseen force that only knew of my undying misery,
I sat for hours on end, staring into the black hole inside my heart,
Could've been an angel who had an intent to tear my deadly sins apart,
But a demon appeared in innocent form, only to betray my eyes,
Raping my mind, filling my head wuth its pure desire for lies,
The world outside appeared so different then the world in here,
I was closed in by these walls of despair that refused to disappear,
Tragedy was like a friend always at my side, constant and heartfelt,
But its portrayal of kindness was a portrayal of my own personal hell,
Penetrating not only my back but also my belief of faith,
Determined to will my tears to bring me to your distain,
All that was lost, I find a path to my redemption,
A clear solution that no one dares to mention,
But there's no fear of muttering the words my lips long to speak,
These words are finalizing the last breath I'll manage to breathe,
To anyone who'll remember my existence, remember my strength,
My weakness has only led me to the light at arm's length,
There's a fate that I must embrace before it destroys,
For too long I've tried not to surrender to the voice,
But its grip is so agonizing that I'd suffer further here then there,
Please forgive me as you read the testament I so desperately declare,
And to my love, who I adored to the very last ache,
My adoration greatly thrusts itself upon you till my spirit's wake,
Till we feel eachother's presence again, my heart awaits your return,
In the lake of fire, our skin shares the same particular burn,
Bathing in the holiness of our love, alone in this passion we hide,
Killing softly in eachother's arms, our pure intentions collide,
But no one will ever discover the truth...of our suicide...

My bloody fingertips push open the rusted gate,
Leaving behind all that determined a likely fate,
Lover looks at me from her left shoulder as I fade into the distance,
Slipping away from our human life's existence,
I chose to be the pawn of our cruelest desire's damnation,
Losing hope of one's faith and her salvation,
Romeo awaits at the entrance, holding the lover's blade,
With no exchange of words, memory of desire will fade,
Into the grey, into the darkness that requires no name,
I awake in a crowd of lost souls that appear in pain,
Whispering their confession of tragedy that reclaims their dispair,
At arms length, they reach for me, in hopes of refuge from my unknown,
Fear strikes their eyes, recognizing the stitches my heart's had to sewn,
This journey I venture alone, with only the black skies to cover,
No rain for eternity, only the rain that reveals the pain from my lover,
All energy has drained from this vessel that used to be human,
But death has approached and has already done his presuming,
I am only but a mere sight of the sorrowful grasp of what is lost,
All that was sacrificial became the only choice I've had to exhaust,
The appearance of my fate may seem dark but it shall be my only light,
Dim in the presence of all that is holy, but I've lifted its burden with all my might,
Nothing but nothingness accompanies me and my abandoned soul,
She has discarded my memory, allowing her heart to once again be whole,
Shaken to the very core, her being still feels that desire in the veins,
Imprisoning her, keeping her as if like unbreakable chains,
Unattainable to the touch, can't reach with even my fingertips,
Her kiss is a fantasy that my mind retains to my frozen lips,
My thoughts are unheard, fading slowly into an ocean of the deep,
Penetrating my dearest moments, my eyes will only know how to sleep,
This hunger for her breath I try to detain in my most profound dream,
This concludes the last of my most dire of requests, to appear as it may seem,
In a place where the heart belongs to the passion it desperately secludes from,
Where the love we once were drawn to, is now where the feeling grows numb,
Her name can't even be whispered from the lips she once tasted so sweet,
Now bitter from the words that should've been silenced and kept discreet,
Her lullaby once sung me to sleep, now only haunts me and claims my peace,
She once embraced my arms now it only leaves us with shakiness and unease,
I let her go, let her drift further and further away into the nothingness,
I discovered her remains when I drifted also into the grips of emptiness,
Blinded by the brightness of the symbolic light that pulls us in,
My soul was lost, waited in line with the rest for the after to begin,
A demon followed me home, he stole my breath when she stole my innocence,
Restless in the fire, bargaining my desireful sins that have only caused consequence,
The river of tears took me down the current of my shame,
I couldn't bare to witness the flashbacks of my worst pain,
The stains of my memories leave me grieving in a disguise I've worn long ago,
She ran to me in its familiarity forgetting the last time we spoke,
We only await the ticking of the clock that counts us in every second,
Throwing our arms into thin air, listening to the siren we beckon,
Guided by the voices, calling our names, leading us to our destruction,
Footprints in blood lead us to where our hearts will relieve us from combustion,
Refusal of an undying love only denies us the life we desire to obtain,
Lost the memory of the night when ecstasy once returned as I called a name....