Memories

I remember being full of emotion

Before my whole world turned inside out, set into a new motion

Back then i knew how to be happy to true sense with a devotion

Then i didn't really care about all the commotion

Back then i thought nothing could tear me apart

But that all changed when the truth punctured me like a dart

My heart felt betrayed my mind wondered why, reality seeming not to play its part

But then i learned the real truth which hit my hard in the heart

My emotions blackened my emotions shown mostly fake

I thought to myself what more can my true family take

I had tears to shed but they ran out when my body stopped its shake

The times have been rough and challenges hit hard life seemed ruined thanks to a snake

But then my Mom said we have each other so we still have a chance

I thought she was right so i gave her an understanding glance

We started putting pieces together again making a advance

We survived my family and I and we started to enhance

My family started to move forward but i still needed time

Of course i never told my mom all the things that chime

In my head i kept locked, expressing my emotions in rhyme

I soon also started to move forward to make a climb

But as i moved forward,certain emotions stayed dark

I ignore the feelings that come from the name Clarke

But eventually the anger arose now and again into a explosive arc

I hope one day i can gain some emotion back into my spark

But today i see the world as it truly is and i trust only those who earned that right

And i find most of my comfort with the starry sky during the night

The friends i kept with me always made me so bright

I know those friends i can surely keep for years in my sight

These few years have changed me so much looking back i barely know who i am

But at least now all my memories with the Clarke family were all that bad to keep in my heart