Mentally-beautiful

I didn't believe it when I first heard it I shrugged it off like a spec of dust I dont wanna feel weak or emotionally lost
I didn't wanna explain or own the pain hiding away fromm society is where I wanted to stay so many stigmas so many looks I felt physically and mentally insane
I had to hide the symptoms and the pain and put on mask a puppet on a string acted as tho I was clinically clean.
Tap tap in my head it's like hide and seek tag your next thoughts like a whirl wind pool mentally drowning in the dark no life line or another chance.
You dont understand how normal I wanted to be I'll trade all my money and my mobility
Yet another pill another day to try and block out all the pain
My veins run deep my bloods flows wide I dont even have the urge to fight a life line hanging by a thread yes sometimes I use to want to be dead.
It ain't worth it to scars for those who judge
Life ain't easy life is hard step in my shoes and feel those mental scars
Dont open this book u ain't invited to read my story isn't for you or any eyes to see.
Deep inside I want to be sane and live my life open and be confident please no more pain.
But after all life is no joke you dont know me because deep inside I will rise just wait and see because one day you will know Ill be recovered and on my path to the holy road.
Demons are rough and leave there marks they crush and cripple from inside to out
Mental helath illness is paralyzing thers no dobout
When i get made I dont use emotions or words I tend to shout because inside I'm crumbling and caving in I wish you would get me please help me out.
I dont expect pity or sympathy i expect human rights and respect from all because one day you may rise but you also may fall.