Mercy

Lol just another chronicle in the epic dude love from some years back, when I was really really dumb lol.
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I. 

You just vanished. Not a reason, 
nor a simple good-bye. 

The clock ticks and ticks. 

The maddening quiet of this house 
plays havoc with my head. 
I would go outside no more 
than I would stick my hand in a flame. 

In you, I have lost a son, 
a lover, a husband, but no one 
has been able to find your body. 

I don't know where to mourn you. 
There is no headstone. 
Only my phone where it all began.

I know it was nothing from the first, 
but with you...
Just leaving... I bite hard 
on my bottom lip so the tears 
will not come. 

The clock ticks and ticks. 

II. 

I was a child once. 
There was this man married 
to my mother but he hated me 
for some reason. I loved him 
and ached for him to love me 
back. 

I waited for my father to pick 
me up sometimes. Sometimes he 
wouldn't show. 

But I waited and waited. 

My hands shake and I try not to sob. 
I don't want to wait anymore. 
Please, no more waiting. 

III. 

Please, I don't know what to do 
with myself anymore. Write me, 
please, just tell me why you left, 
just give me a reason. 

Show me you know 
what the word "mercy" means. 

Let the police find your body 
so I can look upon it one last time, 
knowing it is you, that you 
are slowly fading into dust.