Midnight Blue

The church clock 
announces midnight 
with a dozen chimes.
I roll over in the bed
the other side is cold,
the pillow untouched.
even the house 
creaks and groans.
inside  my head the 
blueness visits
am I to die alone?
will nobody ever care?
is loneliness my journey?
I  tell myself not all 
people alone are lonely.
and that not all 
lonely people
are alone.
it does not help.
the silence roars
like a lion.
through my window
The Chinese lantern moon
hangs its low light 
all forlorn.
and I ask myself
what did I ever do
to midnight that
makes it hurt me so.