A MOTHER IN AWE

A MOTHER IN AWE 
I AM IN REAL TROUBLE TODAY FOR MY MOM IS IN DISTRESS 
SHE BROUGHT ME UP ALL HER LIFE WITH NOTHING ASKED BACK 
I AM IN TROUBLE TODAY BECAUSE I AM A MESS 
MY MOM THE SWEET FLOWER I TURND INTO A MAID 
I AM IN TROUBLE TODAY FOR I SHOWED NO CARESS 
WITHOUT APPRECIATION I STOLE HER GOODS 
WITHOUT LOVE AND RESPECT I ATE UP HER FOOD 
SHE CARRIED MY HEAD UP HIGH FIGHTING MY BATTLES 
BUT ALL I GAVE HER BACK WAS A BLOODY CATTLE 
TODAY I AM ASHAMED FOR I WAS A HYPOCRITE 
TO MY GOD, MY CHURCH, I AM OF NO PROFIT 
  
MY MOTHER, A GARDENER OF CORRECTION, THE GUIDE OF ROSES 
SHE IS THE ONE AND ONLY SANCTUARY AFTER CHRIST, MY LORD 
MY IGNORANCE AND DISOBEDIENCE, MY LAZINESS AND SELFISHNESS COMING OUT THE CLOSET 
I SAY TIME WITH HER IS NOT COOL, I AM ALWAYS BORED 
IF ONLY I KNEW HOW MUCH JOY I LOST 
ITS NOW TOO LATE I AM FIRED AS SON, I RESIGN MY POST 
TO BRING YOU HAPPINESS AS JUST A CHILD AND NOT A MAN IS NOW MY GOAL 
SORRY FOR THE PAST, MY MISTAKES I SHOULD HAVE LEARN FROM, I MADE A SCARY FOUL 
MY LIFE NOW IS TO THRIVE IN YOUR JOY 
AND STRIFE ALL NEGATIVITY FOR PEACE AND ADMIRATION 
I UNDERSTAND THAT RESPECT IS NOT A TOY 
I AM NOW IN SELF-CASTIGATION FOR A BRIGHTER DESTINATION 
SO I PLEAD MY CASE TODAY FOR A CHANCE OF CORRECTION 
  
THIS A NEW YEAR NOW AND I SMELL THE LOVE 
ITS TRUE THAT I WAS ROTTEN BEFORE BUT WITH YOUR FORGIVENESS I WILL BE MADE PURE 
SO TODAY I COME AS BEGGAR IN REQUEST FOR THIS RELATIONSHIP TO CURE 
I AM AT FAULT FOR A LOT AND MY STUPIDITY BROUGHT ME TO THE GRAVE 
IN THE TEARS OF YOUR EYES CAUSED BY MY WRONG I SEEK TO BE BRAVE 
MOTHER I LOVE YOU SO I SUPPLICATE MY POSITION AS A SON