Multiplying and dividing

Multiplying and dividing
Doing any math possible
to determine how long it's been since I've wept in your name...needless to say,it has only been a day..
It has only been a fraction of a second
A minute in an hour
Since my soul screamed your name
In my sacrifice I find peace but in my heart I find pain.
I have found millions of ways to invision this in my brain..but in every image you still remain .
A cold soul wonders in the distance ,starring  in the mirror.. pondering his existence seeing through eyes that have never truly been open..
Why can't you see me?
This mirror is one way
And I am alone stuck with multiplying and dividing...
This math seems very simple but yet I drift with the oceans every ripple bashing every rock.. feeling highs and feeling lows
The constant feeling of drowning but needing no air to be alive..I succumb to this feeling and rot along with my dignity...for you...