To my dear abuser...

Dear El
 

Waves of regret 

Over the day we met.

You tainted my purity

Ripping my security

You crumbled the innocent me

To the shock of your body

Your brutal desires

Splattered my youthful face

Your awful disgrace 

Meddling in my personal space

Your fingers enjoyed

While my life you destroyed

Your evil scheme employed

With my vulnerability you toyed

You shattered my trust

Life lost its lust

As I battle with disgust

You continue on nonplused 

You filled me with shame

Smeared me with blame

For your horrible game 

Left years of pain

I bottled my rage 

As I holed up in my cage

I did not possess  the courage

At my very young age

My heart would drop to my toes 

For fear that someone knows 

I constantly watched my shadow

suffering the guilt while you stooped so low

When I'd calmed down somewhat 

You cornered my spot 

Making sure I remembered 

In case I forgot

You constantly haunted

My terrifying fear taunted

Your teasing smirk was downright horrid

I'm not sure what you wanted

You rendered me helpless

To my personal crisis

You made my life a bitter mess

With your unsavory abuse

I suffered your torment

Till this very present moment

Now I struggle to be free 

Because I know it wasn't me

And if one day you'll come to see

It'll be my personal victory.