My Feelings

I would like to tell you how I feel.

I have no clue where to start.

So here I go,

It's straight from the heart.

I would like to say Thank you for all you have done for me.

Taking me in when Grandma was sick.

You didn't have to, but it means a lot.

Running me back and forth from work and the hospital.

For loving me, listening and talking to me.

I know I've let you down and upset you,

but I have to learn things for myself.

Even if I make really bad mistakes.

When Grandma died my world ended.

I felt just born.

I built my life around her.

I was lost, hurt and sad.

I didn't mean to hurt you by not coming to live with you.

I wanted to get away, leave the memories of Grandma behind.

I didn't want to hurt anymore.

I loved her too much to believe she is gone.

I'm stubborn.

I hated being told what to do.

I wanted to learn for myself,

do what I want.

I did some stupid things,

now I'm paying for it not anyone else.

I don't want to be judged for what I've done.

I just want support, advice, love and understanding.

I'm not a bad person.

I'm not perfect.

I'm just me.

Please realize this and love me for me,

as I love you for you.