My Hero
This man was one in a million, a single father, taking in his daughter who was 12 years old with an attitude out of this world.
He knew the right thing to do and from that day forward, is what he did. He changed his life and put me first, in all aspects, for I was his "little girl".
He did his best, working overtime sometimes, making sure I had everything I needed, and then some, I think "spoiling" came into light.
But the behavior was learned fast, fake tears when things didn't go my way, pouting, slamming doors.. He should have spanked me with all his might!
But no, he held me, talked to me, took his time to explain things to me, and becoming angry if someone else wanted to correct me.. I knew I was his world, and took for granted he would be here forever...
After all my shenanigans, skipping school, sneaking out, boys, party's, racing on dirt roads... And giving him a granddaughter at fifteen...
His love for me never wavered, stayed strong, firm .. But never raised his voice to me, never mean.
Just knowing I disappointed him hurt me worse than any feeling I had felt in my young years, I vowed to make it up to him, some how, some way...
I went back to school, then got my nursing degree. Even through two marriages and 8 children... Whom all had the opportunity to meet "grandpa", I was able to buy a home and he lived with me until God took him home, I will never forget that day...
My life went downhill, I lost almost everything, couldn't accept Gods decision to take him at that time.. But after being weak for so long, I realized.."He's looking down on you"
From that day on.. I decided to live my life the way I know he would approve, slow down, focus on my family and get us all back together.. Yes that's one thing he taught me , all of the mistakes I made, never made him turn away... I think I just need to lie down outside and put my face up and enjoy the morning dew...
Rest in Paradise dad.......Love you, Carolyn
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Hey Carolyn!!........so glad I caught this..........it's the kind of write that I think everyone will be able to relate to.............not all of us had fathers like yours........and so for me it brought up emotions of loss and disappointment.........but then it did something else..........made me Thank God for my Mother!!..........what REALLY stood out for me was ".......But he never raised his voice to me, never mean......".........wow!!.......That is Amazing.........I can understand the pain of losing such a role model in your life.............your writing my friend, is powerful..........and delivered with such honesty that is a pleasure to read...........Thank You for sharing this with us ALL.............Love and Rockets!!...........T xo
I thank you so much Tony... You are so very kind and sweet, yes my father was my world, he taught me many lessons in life, unfortunately my situation was different because I had no mother to turn to.. When I wanted her most, she wasn't really available til I was 14, and her words cut like a knife... So.. With my father gone, it's just not the same, however, I look to the sky often and when I hear certain songs, or catch a glimpse of something I know my father would love.. There are bittersweet memories, he will always be in my heart and I know he HAS to be watching over me or I wouldn't have come this far! Thank you aha go Tony!!! Just so you know.. Your work is also amazing! Music to my ears!