My Indistinguishable 'Hello'

My heart reached out to you. I scowled and frowned, not possessing the necessary muscles to communicate what I truly intended to communicate. Love. Why? WHY? I screamed this to myself for years. Why could I not just speak what I wanted to speak? Why could they not just hear what I was trying to say? They walked passed. As did the next. And the next. AND THE NEXT!!! ALL OF THEM! I screamed ‘good riddance’ and cried myself to sleep. I wanted their fellowship but pushed them all away. How does a being who yearns for intimacy cope with his complete lack of vulnerability that allows any intimacy to exist? The answer is: he doesn’t. He suffers. He suffers forever.