My Mind

I am trying to live my life
I am trying to not pick up the knife
For if I do
I would cut through
This new vien
Take the Bane
Drink the wine
I try to walk the line
I try to keep straight
Maybe its fate
NO I can do this
I know the bliss
Of a loving a lover
I love her
But what if she doesn’t love me
What if she wants to be free
I’ve been clean for almost a year
I am queer
Maybe that’s why
That could be why I sigh
Why am I this way
Why am I gay