My Monthly Moan....

My Monthly Moan...
I'm trying, by God I'm trying so hard...
It's getting me nowhere, by God nowhere at all...
He keeps having the last laugh, By God they all do...
I'm trying. I'm trying so hard...
I'm in a two & eight, Right old state...
by God it is twenty-eight...
I can't think straight...
I beginning to question what is real...
I don't even know how I feel...
I'm becoming numb & dumb...
By God what am I becoming...?
Stuck in a rut... With only one word going round...
But But But...
I'm losing the will that I always try to in-still...
I'm becoming everything I advise against...
Talking to myself is getting well intense...
How can I give anyone strength, courage or hope...?
When I'm becoming a complete & utter dope...?
By God what's the matter with me...?
I'm looking & it's like I'm watching someone else...?
I think I should stop talking... & Start walking...
All I need dear God is your blessing to quit messing, jessing around...
Guidance along the way... So I can find & appreciate who I am...
Another month to moan & groan...
Dear God give me a wishing well...