My Punishment

I've always had
a darker side

And a mean
streak a mile wide

My sins I never
wanted to hide

I was on a dark
and evil kind of ride

I always knew
I'd pay for my sin

I wanted to die
way back then

I'd get so high
my world would spin

It was so bad I
forgot where I'd been

I never planned
to live to long

So everything I
did was so wrong

I always thought
I was strong

Then one day the
end came along

God stepped in n
opened my eyes

He strengthened
my emotional ties

I started
regretting all of the lies

I saw a new sun
starting to rise

Hate was
replaced with emotion

I never knew I
had such devotion

My heart grew
the size of an ocean

It was like an
emotional explosion

There I sat with
this new insight

Seeing the world
with a new light

Everything now
would be just right

Others dark
worlds I'd make bright

Now I know the
depth of my crime

My punishment
would take a long time

With my sins
this explosion I did prime

This mountain it
seems I would forever climb

Love would be
the price that I'd pay

I care so much
each and every day

I jump in heart
first with no delay

But none of it
ever comes my way

Physical pain
could never compare

Loves damage I
can never repair

Drowning in
feelings gasping for air

This punishment
is too much to bear

But bear it I
must if I'm to survive

I'll bear this
cross as long as I'm alive

Meeting gods
terms I will strive

My debt will be
paid when I take deaths dive