My ride

As true as I can be, i feel as though I will never be free.
confined in this mediocre life, trying to make it all that much better. Feeling as though im fighting life's wars with a plastic knife. Seems to me the rainbows will never shine. Being able to breathe will never be mine. Gasping yet wondering whether to fight or die. Is this life even worth living or is it a lie. Please give me a sign, because truthfully i don't know for sure whether or not I will be fine. Harsh realities reveiled life isn't very kind. Yes, I do believe I am losing my mind. No, I don't think you could handle all these voices in my head. Truth be told I can't afford to care with all the, lies that were led. I can not seem to breathe such suffication with all of my frustrations. Looking with everything I have left all I found was life somehow left me behind. 
to be honest I feel like I am breaking apart inside, it doesn't matter, I'm just here for the ride.