My Suffering.

The eyelids droop. 
Sleep it calls. 
The landscape changes. 
The mind? It falls. 

Colours blend. 
Into black and grey. 
Sanity. 
Then slips. 
Ends my day. 

Some people sort memories made. 
Recall their loved ones. 
Their promises. 
Before they fade. 

For little one's.
Its unicorns. 
The power to fly. 
Or secret missions to far off skies. 

For me! 
It's fear, horror and toil. 
No where is safe here. 
Nothing friendly. 
Or loyal. 

Shapes I see. 
They play tricks. 
Deform!
Transform!
Their speed? 
So quick! 

The heart softens it's beat. 
You think you're safe. 
Breathing slows. 
To its rested pace. 

Then you realise. 
Hope drips away. 
You're lost. 
Alone. 
In this wretched place. 

It's demons with guns. 
Something indescribable. 
Animals with claws. 
Their intentions? 
Excrable. 

They steal your heart. 
Your soul and mind. 
Forced together in bondage. 
With a cage they bind. 

Have I done wrong?
Been the cause of strife? 
Forced to live this pain. 
Till the end of life. 

I must find a way. 
Someone? Please tell! 
How I can be free? 
Escape this hell? 

My way free from dejection. 
Every Single Day!
Reach for the pills. 
No matter what I say. 

They only mask. 
What the eyes saw.
No end in sight. 
No reason. 
No cure.

Could you live like this? 
I ask you all! 
Could you cope, carry on? 
With out ending it all? 
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So as you walk on. 
While I'm locked in torment. 
Cast not that opinion. 
Keep checked that judgment. 

But for now. 
"I'll soldier on". 
Not knowing the way. 
To be free. 
To be safe. 
For all this! 
I'll pray. 
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