Need

As i speak unto my so called world; who listens.
I hear myself, but the understanding of my heart brings confusion.
I am in need.

I cannot sing the words my heart longs to sing
completeness is at my fingertips yet never in my grasp
I am in need....

I have not the humor for the cruel jokings of life, yet i yearn for more and more;
am i a glutton for punishment, or a warrior that will never surrender until the last
beat is forced from my galant heart.
I am in need

If all questions have answers, why can no one quench the thirst of lifes unmanageable throat
I am in need

Can i feel anymore in one life as i already have,
the pain
the pleasure
the hate
the love rack the mind, body, and spirit in unison.
Yet i am still empty of some yet unlearned feeling,
some undiscovered emotion.
I am truly in need.

Can anyone truly be prepared for all life has to offer?
There is never a straight path, there is never a clear goal,
never an up without a down.
If life is based on survival of the fittest,
why is life always more fit?
I am in need.

To dream is to live, to live is to love,
why do i long to love so?
Why do i only feel safe in the comfort of the skin I cant have?
Why can i only rest and be rested in the delight of her spirit?
Why can i look into the wide innoent eyes of unconditionally loving children,
see the sparkle; see the untainted life; yet feel its not enough.
Who do i think i am?
I am in need.

Can one heart love so much, yet feel so little in return, and still be a good heart?
Where do the answers of peace lie?
I only long to touch her, feel her in my heart; yet more so... make her heart know mine.

Lord of lords, king of kings, beginning and ending of salvation!
Help me to arise, lead me,
not unto temptation,
but deliver this spirit from evil!
She is my cross, and i pray to you through her.
I wish only to pray to you forever.
I am in need.

I eat, i sleep, i dream, i cry, i laugh, i fear,
i cherish her.
Can my love be too deep?
Can my heart be too lost to one to ever find myself and the love i have for me?
I die yet i live, i live yet i die, i love therefore i am alive!
If i can bring the pain, i must bring the joy!
I dare anyone to love as much as i
To cherish as much as i.