Never Be

(Me being stupid over the dudes again lol. I've chilled out a lot over the years. Thank God lol.)

the first time I saw you 
I knew I’d love you forever 
because I knew I’d loved you before 

I was certain you’d haunt my days 
and swallow my nights 

you once seemed to love me back 
but you grew cruel 
in words and actions 

still the only thing that has ever   
felt right in this life 
was being with you 

you made the me without you 
intolerable 
when before the me alone   
had been bearable 

once you sat playing guitar 
I held onto you from behind 
as if you were saving my life 
you probably weren't there with me at all 

but I couldn't move 
couldn't stop touching 
feeling you 
I’d never known 
burning perfection 
completion 

I yearned to cry in your absence 
because in some way 
it brought you closer to me 

decades have passed 
yet you still haunt my dreams 
as if you hold my soul-strings 
in your hands 

sometimes I sit 
and realize you are breathing 
at this very moment 
I shiver 

and live for the day 
you lead me back home 
into the safety and rightness 
of your body 
your soul 

forever 

please 
my sweet love 
come back to me