Nightmares

You told me you loved me and now im all alone, lost and unprotected.
I'm so cold and numb so it feels like I've never seen the sun.
You died and all i ever dream is nightmares.
Every night i promise you, they are real and i scream, scared and crying.
I swear I try to let go, almost ten years and im still trying.
So tonight I might cry but tomorrow i will hide it.
My children wont see any of my sorrow. 
To them my scars are not there, they aren't real.
To me they are there and i hope it wont be long before i heal.