No escape

 Not knowing what to say or do 
Or where to begin is my biggest down fall 
How can I have a million thoughts but not know where to start it all
As I Lay in this room starring at these four walls all I can think of is nothing at all
My mind is blank 
My feelings are vague
I really hate going threw this rage 
It's my biggest opponent 
It's my largest obstacle 
But still in my mind anything is possible 
My heart feels so many emotions but still I feel emotionless 
I don't see how I care so much but still feel so careless 
I guess it's the never ending thoughts that makes me feel fearless 
And the forever ending tears that made me feel tearless 
Everything that I'm saying means the opposite
Everything that I'm saying contradicts
So less means more?
Or more means less ?
Do I think to much or do I think to less??
Is my mind perfectly equipped
Or is it a perfect mess? 
Some of these questions I could never start to guess 
When my adrenalines pumping to and from my veins 
It's gives a visual of the thoughts running threw my brain
There is no down time there is no brake
Even when my eyes are closed 
my minds awake
Everything I think of comes to life 
Everything I feel comes to life
I can't escape this,
is how it seems ,
Every thought I have turns into dreams 
Like Past events that's haunting me
Up to present events that's bothering me
Down to the future events thats hindering me 
I just can escape 
I need to be freed