No love lost no love found

I've been here before. Hoping, wishing this may be different. 
All outcomes are the same, to which I don't blame. It's my fault..

And I can not bare to say the name. 
Things are never just meant to be, at least not for me. 
Maybe one day God will bring him to me, but so far that's not been reality. 
I just want to be loved, I just want to show it.

Loving is not hard, loving is not time sensitive, but understanding and much more.
Who am I to be selfish and deny all that you are worthy of? 
Oh how I would love to keep you all for myself. 
But for I love you enough to let you go. 
And letting you go I shall. 
For it was not meant to be, and For that I'm sorry.