No moving on

You never meant to hurt me
You said nothing out of malice
All you wanted was to squeeze from me
a carriage and a palace

And why shouldn't you
after all you'd been through
But the GFC hit us hard
and I didn't have a brass razoo

I could blame you for not supporting me
And riding through the storm
Or for not wanting our second child
to in such times be born

But I should have been the hero
you didn't have to be
I should have held my temper
and earnestly found a way

I tried of course to relocate
I thought you would accommodate
But when mum got sick
and the game changed
You couldn't properly wait

That's one thing that drew a line in the sand
You insulted her sore,
and I'll never understand

When it came to your dad
what I did was bad
But that was after you made me mad

Not angry, just cracked
I couldn't take no more
And that is why
I walked out the door

Years passed and you came back
And you had suffered much
But you seemed to know at the time
The problems came from both of us

And so I trusted you again
And you cautiously trusted me
to a degree
And I hoped so great
we'd try again
to be a family

But there was poison in the waters
An under black current
You knew most certainly
that I'd fall for it

You'd no intention to follow through
with the hope you had created
And spared no thought
for the kindling in my heart
you had regenerated

And when I was no longer convenient
And had no monetary value
You bailed with our son expedient

Again you tore him from my heart
And severed all the wires
You left my inner self
a devastated village hosting fires

I try to forgive
but the pain remains
And these thoughts return
on lonely days

I hope enough water
under the bridge shall pass
By the time I see again
our grown up son at last

Nothing can replace the time you've stolen
I thought you would learn from the first five years of agony
But instead you've chosen to extend
this abusive unnecessary tragedy

I made it clear that I had wanted to cooperate
And tried my very best
But your talk was cheap
just buying time
Till you could act in jest

You mock my vulnerability
and yes there was a time when I mocked yours
But I am pretty sure the path you've chosen
will end as revolving doors

Don't you think it's time
you tried things differently
Negotiate and compromise
May I suggest in domestic affairs
a win-win is most wise

I know our son is torn apart
Your solutions cannot aid
Have you not considered that
your parenting may raise a renegade

The boy is not stupid
he'll learn who to respect
And from the way your going
I see where to place the bets

Try again, I beg you
to let me in once more
For all that has transpired
I'm still an open door

I just want what's best for Izi
And surely you do too
Come back to the table
and let's discuss what works for you