Not anymore

I’m a normal human being but not anymore. I need to face the truth but yet still stuck right at the shore. I want to just jump in and make it there you see. But swimming in deep not anymore for me. I look to change what’s going on. I feel like I’ve been to far gone. But can I find not anymore. How do I get to that open door. A normal person just may not know. How much help or where to go. It’s catching up on me you see. Not anymore is hard to be. I need a chance to find my way. In my words so much to say. I need to find not anymore. But it is hard to run to that door. Must be strong in all that means. I wasn’t given those magic beans. To truly find not anymore. That’s up to me to open that door. I may just be writing on. But before you know it not anymore is gone.