Not You

I wish I could tell you this from the top of my head

I don't know what it really is but it's making me feel dead

Through thick & thin I took the stabs 

For real you even driven me mad 

No happiness in my eyes cause I'm sad from lost 

Scared to commit cause I'm always the one they toss

Gone back and fourth between love and heart break 

All that will eternally make your heart ache 

It was a special bond we shared 

Now you treat me like it was never there 

The thought of you makes my hair stand it's like chills going down my spine man 

Remember all those mirror jams

Hugged you from behind while we goofed and danced 

It's like when I'm with you my mood was enhanced 

Remember the way you looked at me 

I saw the twinkle in your eye 

I remember I even held you while you cried 

You figured what we had was real 

It scared you to make someone else your world 

But i took your heart and combined it with mine 

I thought it would've been forever but we ended over time 

Remember the last nights we spent just chilling and talking about weird stuff

You forgot how much I really mattered 

Everyday I'm still trying to comprehend 

Till this day I still feel like dying 

If only you knew how much I missed you 

But you'll never know because you'll never see this 

I'll live with the pain cause I made the mistake

Of going behind your back and speaking of what shouldn't be said 

For that I'm sorry and I won't have the courage to tell you but 

I still love you and I always will 

So let my spirit give you one last kiss 

I hope you in good hands and health 

Sorry I spoken about you so much 

I'm left with memories and still no luck 

I'll just stay here broken while you rebuild cause you found someone new 

But I'm scared to commit 

To Someone Who Ain't You.