Nothing really matters

Have you ever been shot in the rain
Could you smell it
Was the world out of focus or
Could you see through the storm
Did anyone hear the screams that left your mouth 
Did the ground hug back 
Or was it a love drought 
Did you hear your killers heels hit the ground as your breathe skipped out your mouth 
Did you watch yourself die through his pupils first 
Were you blinded by the colorful lights of the police cars 
Were you afraid to be arrested even though you were the victim 
Did your mothers screams pierce your ears 
Did you feel thick droplets of blood run down your body as your life drained from you
Did you count every bump in the back of the ambulance
Did you feel darkness surround around as the vehicle which was carrying you come to a halt
Did you let your last breath crawl from your body while your loved one watched
Were you at the place for drug dealers 
Did you meet your maker 
Could you look her in the eyes 
Could you apologize for every sin that had ever crossed your mind
Could you keep up with your pride once she called out every crime you committed
Were you welcomed into a Paradise
Or did you end up doomed in the place for sinners
In the end did the rain matter or was it just a beginning