Now

I never knew back then,
what I know now.
I needed you somehow 
although you lied so
much up until now,
I’m still holding on
to not give up as
my world still 
spins around.
Its all because of you
how I am now,
I miss my youth,
I miss the truth,
because now I know
how life really is.
I miss loving ,and
holding you,
I miss all the good 
things we promised 
each other I miss?
trying to succeed 
because now my
heart bleeds…

~Deb