Numb no more

I let the candle burn,
for I fear the shadows more than the flame.
I leave the windows wide,
despite the cold I feel the same.
I let my self fall for all I feel is numb.
I try to smile but I fear my heart is done.

Am I alive, or am I all dried up inside.
I want to live, but I can't escape.
I'm stuck inside a cage,
that is myself,
and the world around me.
I want to cut the lock,
but I'm afraid of what will happen.

What if I'm just as cold as I was on the outside looking in?
How many times have I counted sheep because I couldn't sleep?
I tell myself that I'm fine, but deep down I know that's a lie.
How much more can I take before I scream?

Am I alive, or am I all dried up inside.
I want to live, but I can't escape.
I'm stuck inside a cage,
that is myself,
and the world around me.
I want to cut the lock,
but I'm afraid of what will happen.

Often I have dreamed of a better place.
But I know the grass is just as brown there as it is here.
I cannot run, for it isn't the people that hurt me.
It's the voices that keep pounding inside my head.

Am I alive, or am I all dried up inside.
I want to live, but I can't escape.
I'm stuck inside a cage,
that is myself,
and the world around me.
I want to cut the lock,
but I'm afraid of what will happen.

I let the candle burn,
for I fear the shadow's more than the flame.
I look down for I fear they're eye's will tame.
I am not letting myself feel numb again.