Ode to the random blobs of paint, and the blue bin

My heart is a bin
Filled up with sins
Every path I take
Leaves me more awake

I can't win
Walking on this wire
So thin
Move fast, it's on fire

The situation's becoming more dire
Excuse me for wanting to conspire
You must think I'm a liar
It's hard, I'm starting to tire

Give me time
I'll become something sublime
Wait for me
I'll become a somebody

You have to work hard
To change the world
What happens
When you've been left scarred?

I don't feel like I'm good enough
Surviving my mind is tough
I've been locked to anxiety
So fuck society

My heart's a bin
My soul left my skin
My voice slipped away
My mind went astray