One Day

I wanna take this moment to live. I have so much to give. My nights are
cold and alone because my heart is made of stone. I just wanna say
what I feel. maybe its too much or maybe its a rush. Every night my
mind runs in cirlces stop screaming let me out. In my mind I shout.
How do I explain my doubt. I already know what my thoughts are about.
I wonder what its like out there. Everywhere I go I stare. I see my
future and my past or maybe im just going to fast. I wanna have the
life I have always wanted but not until this nightmare im living in
has ended. Im living in the moment afraid because that is all that I
can do because of everything that I have been through. Maybe one day
I will wake up living my dream and everything won't appear the way it
seems. My mind is bigger than life itself but right now it is just a
closed book on a shelf. Once that book is opened. It can't be
stopped. My closed mind hasn't even begun. Once my mind is opened who
knows what I will become. The pain I have right now will eventually
disappear but my strength will always be near. Im waiting for the day
that the smile on my face is real which will be the day I say what I
really feel. One day I will wake up to light without a fight. I know
I can get past the life im living when the day comes I will keep
giving because what I have to offer is more then what everyone is
thinking but today I still look at life winking I just can't wait
until I open my eyes.