Pain Is My Best Friend

I listened

To your lies.

The false words.

Plastic.

Am I a doll

To you?

A fake heart?

One who only sees

One way.

Can’t think,

Can’t talk,

Can’t see,

Through

You.

You know,

I’ve been hurt.

Broken.

I’ve been through

Hell and back.

Don’t tell me

I don’t know

Pain.

I’ve been to a dark place.

One of no escape.

A sinking black hole.

Don’t tell me

That I don’t know pain.

Because pain is my best friend.

I have lost so many friends.

Some were real.

Some were as fake

as the heartless doll

You see me as.

People call me

A freak.

An abomination.

An attention whore.

A slut.

I don’t need pity

And I sure as hell

Don’t need your

Bullshit

Excuses.

Lies.

I thought you cared.

Now I know

It was a joke.

To impress

Your shitty ass friends.

Oh, yeah let’s mess with

Freak Girl.

Let’s mess up her pathetic life.

One.

More.

Time.

Well, let me tell you

Something.

Listen good.

You don’t know

What pain is.

Not a broken bone

Or a skinned knee

But real emotional pain.

Pain that only exists

In Life.

Pain that hurts

A hell of a lot more

Than your broken bones

and skinned knees.

Because pain

Is my best friend.