Panic Attack
Out there scary
Over stimulation
Buzzing sensation
Shut down sequence activated
Physically drained I retreat to the sanctuary I created
Present but unaccounted for
A misinterpreted face in the crowd
Fighting back the urge to run
Feeling like an outsider struggling to belong
Never was very popular
Never asked for your approval
I’ve been to the edge many times
Stood and looked over
Self imposed prison
Physical walls too
Need to get out more
Easier to say than do
Heart rate increasing
Vision narrow
Being in a crowd is unbearable
I used to self medicate
to take the edge off
but my crutch broke while trying to convince me
assuredly that I could cope
So I stand here alone
with a cacophony of self doubt ringing in my ears
Hoping you don’t notice
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WOW!! DENISE!!.... you've captured something VERY special here!!...... anxiety/panic can be a 'mind killer' when it comes to dealing with the pressures of this crazy reality....... and you have 'nailed' the truth of the matter with poetic grace and insightfulness!!..... one of the most difficult things to do in all of poetry is to write poetic prose and then have the reader claim that what they've read is filled with an obvious rhyme scheme.... you've accomplished that here quite unmistakably and most profoundly ~
~ "Never was very popular
Never asked for your approval
I've been to the edge many times
Stood and looked over...."
One would swear that this stanza rhymed on every line..... but NO..... it's quite simply VERY poetic and sings like a lyric line!!.......ALL STARS!! & PINNED!!.......VERY well conceived and BEAUTIFULLY delivered dear poet brother!!........I am your cyber-friend and admirer.......LOVE & ROCKETS!!........T xo ?✴❤✴?
I am humbled. I really try to capture the essence of my subject matter in a way that connects the reader thru feeling or making one think of things in a new perspective.
Writing is my refuge. Language is power.
Words rule!
I am humbled. I really try to capture the essence of my subject matter in a way that connects the reader thru feeling or making one think of things in a new perspective.
Writing is my refuge. Language is power.
Words rule!