Past

The days were long and dark,
Pain inside was getting sharp,
Clouds covering my mind,
Makin my happiness blind,

The sound of footsteps late at night,
Feelings of fear and fright,
As he came close to me,
I pretended i was somewhere to be,

Body froze chills down my spine,
Drove me crazy and way out of line,
Tears rolling down my face had no control,
Telling someone became my goal,
Treated like a slave and treat me like a toy,
Running away was my plan my ploy,
I was a girl hurt with no sound,
Will i ever get my feet on the ground,

A life living punishment every single day,
Leaving me down with no voice to say,
He came in my room and my body just froze,
And alls i could think of was dying with an overdose,

Making me not tell anybody what he was doing to me,
Can he not tell how he was making me feel what does he see,
His eyes were red as he pleaded for me to help him stop,
What could i do i didnt know my head was ready to pop,

I was only a child but it was taken away,
What do i do should i go or should i stay,
I thought of how life was and if it was worth the pain,
Beatings after beatings made to lick out a dishwasher by this point im going insane,

So up i got and took my sister to a place we couldnt get hurt,
In a park strange people our home was now in the dirt,
Noone listened or understood the pain i felt inside,
It killed the girl i used to be i just wanted to hide,

My childhood taken away from me now this is the path i have to take,
Sat on my own washing my pain away in the lake,
A girl with no sound having to deal with this living nightmare,
Not knowing who is true who loves you or who is it that will care,

Forgiving them all was what i did in the end,
But punished myself and drove myself round the bend,
Illness after illness but thats what helped me through,
My heart and soul lost and didnt know what to do,

But now im strong to tell the tale and help others talk,
Because in the end you'll be happy and do the happy walk,

Be strong,
It wont be long,
Till happiness finds you,
Do whatever you need to do,

To smile,
It'll take a while,
But god is on your side,
Dont let the pain let you hide