Piripi

Why do I look?
why do I care?
Without realising, I'm falling in a pit of despair.
Do I love? I don't know, but now that I'm here I don't want him to go.
What if he finds another me that connects with his heart; it already bothers me that we are worlds apart.
I never fall fast, is this how I know?
My mind is preoccupied so its hard to let go.
I'm back home now but constantly wanting to leave, I want so much more; my emotions, hard to weave. 
I'm never like this, I don't understand; now I see why people bury heads in the sand.
Why do Iook?
Why do I care?
Without realising, I'm falling in a pit of despair.