PURPOSE

For too long I have felt my life has no purpose, Doubting my Lord asking why am I here, Loathing myself feeling lonely and worthless, Filled by guilt, shame, remorse and regrets, Both gullible, impulsive, I’ve made foolish mistakes, Affecting my loved ones in negative ways, Causing all surrounding me stress and heartbreak, I treasure my family, I hated to cause them such pain, So convinced I didn’t deserve to be pitied or loved, In a desperate cry for help, I almost gave up, I badly wanted to leave, just watch from above, But my family stayed beside me with endless support, They gave me my strength, the will to not die, I realised to lose me would shatter their lives, I must keep going, I must at least try, To fight this depression, return to the world, What’s happened has happened, what’s done has been done, I now know my life’s purpose is simply to live, For my Mother, my father, my sisters and my son.