Mad Science (quantum physics of a liar)

... A possible confession ...
not to be afraid to look pathetic
overly exerting requests and claims
do I ask to much, I know it can get hectic
bouncing around from place to place
like a maddened illusionist

we don't need the ladies flustered in tears 
over heartbreak from the prevaricate sadist
we don't need the world frantic with fears
causing a riot... a misunderstanding between us and them
who are they... whoever they are to you
could it be the government could it be a self-reflection
we can be our own worst enemy or our own best friend
never proclaim half of the truth when the time-frame comes to an end
I'm all in or I give nothing more than a bullshit list
I served my time in this battle royale
and I just want a house and home
I fought a spiritual warfare 
and I just want one woman to have and to hold
I may not be the perfect gentlemen
but I don't want to give in to your expectation and fold
I am who I am and we don't change
over time life changes us one moment at a time
one day at a time, one week at a time, one month at a time
one year at a time comes back around the sun
to see a bigger and brighter picture than the year before
the hindsight is always 20/20... the insight is always keen
the foresight is always acurate... you become the picture you paint
I never claimed to be a tyrant, neither am I very good at being a saint
for better or for worse will you stand by me through the thick fog or will you vanish in the thin air
don't stand there and act like you just don't care... Because I know you do
I know you'll be there for me as I will be there for you
I've sworn an oath to protect the secret...
to simplify the complexities I've come to understand
an Oath can't be broken when integrity is on the line
I shouldn't have to prove my self-worth...
yet show that I can fly like an eagle and stay down to earth
I know there may be some things I may never understand...
I know love is not suppose to have conditions
than why do I always find myself with an ultimatum
if you do this and that I'll do this and that
just do it out of the kindness of the heart of gold

trigger one breaking point and the levi crumbles into the sea
the ocean washes over the land leaving behind catastrophe
have you ever seen the ocean, it's always in motion
so beautiful in it's massive presence yet so can it be a destroyer of coastal civilization 
it can wash away the stains of time... leave sediment behind
Have you ever walked alone in the desert sands of time
the hourglass can be flipped over after draining the last grain of sand
compared to the universe we are nothing but a spec
yet we are gifted with the blessing to create and the power to self-destruct
If you seek the power of love you are an unstoppable force of nature that can't be reckoned with
If you do someone wrong it's left up to the hands of fate
do nothing and let karma sort it out... don't wish anything bad on anyone
pray for them... the more you feed the black wolf into the eyes of the bully in the schoolyard
the more you give him or her the power over you... walk away, sluff it off, write it off
act like nothing in the world gets to you... there will be a moment when you get your revenge
until then walk in the eyes of the white wolf... and the grey wolf will follow
don't let the fire burn you... use the their weapon against them
walk away ... pay no mind... they just want a rise out of you
it hurts them more to know that nothing they do or say will hurt you
if I could turn back time I would of ignored everyone and made her mine
I would of started the band and even in the dark their is light at the end of the line
here I am, here I stand, I am the way. entrust in my hand... letters of the divine
I am straight and masculine yet also in touch with my inner feminine
the soul of a woman won't tell you when they draw a line... they'll just do it out of love not out of spite
 
the sun is such a massive sphere of plasma
radiating energy and warmth
yet so very untrusting that it can explode
at any given moment
let's not worry about the end of days...
because we don't know for sure when it'll be
live for each and every day
every moment counts for something, let's me see
is the black-hole sucking plasma from the sun
or is the sun immortal like our beloved one
Is mother earth a pissed off feminist extremist
or is she the undying love like the earth mother
both true but somewhere in between there is inner-peace
in knowing that everything works out in the end
every ending is a new beginning, the end of a time-frame not the end all or be all
to be or not to be, that is the question... what was your childhood dream
what or who was it that inspired the extension of yourself
from the cradle to the grave... we were born free not a mind slave

therefore I'm okay being single, I'll look out for number one
aside from the oath I made... to protect and serve 
I can't disrupt the karmatic wheel...
sometimes people get what they deserve
The quantum physics of a liar sets it up for a landslide downfall
look at the up side of down and the downside of up, forevermore
all the negativity unanswered has repercussions worth answering for 
cancer causing black matter agent spreading like wild fire
to heal your mind is to heal your body to heal your soul
miracles happen at a small scale on a daily basis...
evil falls where it rises and good deeds go around full circle
the confessions of a liar unravelling the layers like earth compound
that overlap one on top of the other, exposing the lost to be found
the skattered mind of a mad scientist always wondering
about that specimen on the top shelf creating a vicious cicyle
when the answers we were looking for were right in front of our eyes
Out there somewhere in the great beyond there's nothing but an empty space
until we unite there will not be world peace...
culture isn't divided by race or stature... it's divided by social grace
say hello to a stranger. make conversation... whether big or small
we can talk about the weather, people places and things or life and the unknown
it's like some folks are cross-eyed looking left and right
while I'm looking up and down and all around not seeing eye to eye
when the singularity is to complex it keeps us distant
keep it simple and meet me when I go out of my way to be there
to open my eyes and ears and listen to you speak... look from your point of view
It would be selfish of me to be a narcissist hardened drunkard... 
sobriety and celibacy gives me clarity... helps me see things through
all this time I've been feeding the grey wolf... balancing lines between reason and faith 
and even the ram will will knock the shepherd down for hitting the sheep on the ass

both parties have to be ready and fearless and be there
let the rambling man speak his mind and get it all out
he'll be all eyes and ears open when it comes time to listen
when you have something imporant to say
speak when spoken too or forever hold your peace
May be I didn't let you get a word in edgewise
I'm hanging off the edge of a cliff with a woman with a heart of gold
with a decision to lift me up or let me fall on my own growing old
I stand on the edge side stepping shuffling my feet
pull me close and kiss me gently... you won't be sorry when our lips meet
I have a magic touch... clairvoyant reiki energy flows through me
I can pull dark energy out and replace it
with light and new colors to paint the universe
I can lift up the oppressive soul
creating a blessing from what seems like a curse
the better half of the darkness of the soul
unveiling the other half of this and that
Leaning toward one side of the justice scale
than changing the mind at the drop of a hat
bipolar charged by a wide variety of the opinions of another
she listened to them over me and her fate was self-inflicted
so was mine, I left her behind  
words from another or the one or the other all connected
in one way or another,,. it wasn't her fault, I don't blame her or myself
that was then and this is now... she says you're the one
No one else has any say in our connection
Communication and compromise takes two build a stronghold companionship
let loose and release that negative energy
through a cosmic wave through the arms, one ear and out the other...
like your surfing and no wave can bring you down... fall into my arms
let me sweep you off your feet... be your husband, your lover, your king, your best friend
I will never do you wrong... I don't have it in me
I may open doors where devils get in... but I'm not that devil they think I am
I may be a scorpio but I'm not your poison anymore

life is like surfing with swiftly swaying flow of still movement 
as the heart is pulsating steadily... let it beat off beat once in a while...
one after the other, standing in orderly fashion... do what makes you smile
some of us have to wait at the back of the line   
some of us have limits some of us don't
I blame the whether or not we do or we don't
whether we will or we won't... when everything falls in line don't be afraid to walk it

looking for a promise worth keeping...
to keep my inner peace with each day through and through the night
the morning star must sleep to be well rested
to be bright eyed and bushy tailed without a reason to lie
I try to wake up each morning grateful just to be alive...
yet have you ever stared off into space hoping to die
the early bird gets the worm and doesn't go hungry
have you ever wondered when the time will bend matter...
bending the light energy back in your direction
that life is a journey of self-discovery found within...
stare to long at the reflection you'll crash and burn
some enter the dragon, the eyes of the spectre... the point of no return 

self-realization that the nightmare is simply a warning sign
hold back take a deep breath, relax and reflect a bit..
take a brief moment to unwind before you enter into a world of trouble
trouble seems to follow the troubled soul... some doors are meant to stay closed
go ahead take a peak in the door at the end of the hall...
do you see the beasts and wolves having a feast
would of loved to join them but my heart is more like a king lion
neither am I your average bear... I may beat my chest like a gorilla
but I roar like a lion... even though I like to howl in the full moon 
I bask in the sun defending my tribe with honor
honesty goes a long way... building respect proving loyalty
leveling up isn't easy when your to timid to see the dirty side of royalty 

what about one of the side doors sealed shut...
kick a door in I dare you
you might see something so frightening
you'll regret ever looking in
or you'll see a conquest leading to the
victory in this painstaking journey 
I didn't go through the door at the end of the hall... I peaked in
neither did I open a side door but I can only imagine
one door may have a warlock wizard troll feeding creatures in a pit...
filling a troph with blood and body parts as the creatures snarl and drool
one door may be a trap door into a dungeon 
not a door for the faint at heart...
one of the doors may lead to the abyss
a journey to find true loves first kiss
she may be sleeping, she may be dancing with shadows
she doesn't cry like we cry...
she weeps softly with shimmering 
teardrops that fall like a gentle rain
one door may be an ancient battlefield,
an endless battle where no one wins
no remorse for the wicked or hell awaits
shameless in the eyes of their sins
one door may be the way out but choose carefully
one may be a free fall...
one may be leaving you penniless
at a shopping mall window shopping
for a gadget you really want...
do you attempt to steal
with the chance to reveal karma's consequence 
or do you wait and save every penny
until you have enough to earn it

looking forward doesn't seem so hard
when all the chaotic events are creating order in the mind 
I'll try my best not to think of the worst case scenarios
and focus on the way it will be it wiil be...
I hate to say we'll see how it goes
I promise to accept and give nothing less  
and nothing more than to love and be loved each and every day
who I am and who I was are two different people
yet my past life can be an antagonist character I portray