Raging sobriety

I am blinded by this rage inside of me. 
I wander around carelessly. 
Bumping into anything close by. 
Wanting to release every ounce of it,
But holding back scared to see. 
Scared to see that side of me. 
I've hidden it deeply. 
Although releasing it will be so sweet. 
I grip the edge tightly. 
Biting my tongue in my sleep. 
Tossing and turning. 
Ignoring this demon that has a hold of me. 
Whispering and telling me "just release". 
It knows I'm a monster ready to be free. 
I hold back and scream. 
I want nothing more to unchain this thing.
To let the world see that I'm not what I seem.
People running in fear hiding silently. 
Yet I hold back. 
Turning my back away from society.