Real reality

It controls your mind
Takes over your soul
Drags you deeper and deeper
Down an endless black hole

You neglect family
And mope around gloomily
Always make excuses to not see friends
But they don’t understand....so friendship ends

It comes and goes,
Like sun and snow.
Always lurking in the background
Following you around

You feel bad if you are happy
Which sounds real crappy,
But it feels so wrong and bad...
Which in turn makes you even more sad

The more you try to understand
And try to hold my hand
I get scared I’m going to infect you
And I don’t want you feeling so blue.

So I hold it in
And let it win
I hide it away
Pretend it’s all ok

It’s like my head is wired wrong
I’m constantly trying to be strong
But tiny cracks start to appear
And my energy disappears

I either eat like there is no tomorrow,
And I feel completely hollow
Or I’ll try to go anorexic.
Which is the most toxic?

Feels like I’m on a rollercoaster 
And the ride is a complete disaster
It’s come off its rails
Just like life...it’s failed

When will I meet the grim reaper
Every time I stumble I fall deeper
But I don’t want to die 
Just don’t want to pretend and lie

Depression is pure evil
Sent directly by the devil
From the depths of hell
He tells me not to tell

Secrecy is a must
As my heart turns to frost
Need to step back
Before everything turns pitch black

Detach from everyone
As my smile turns to a frown
Suddenly I’m drowning again
And the world turns to rain

Every safety net
Is too hard to get
Literally just out of my reach 
And I hear the do-Gooders preach

‘Snap out of it,
Everyone goes through s***
The world isn’t about you
Think happy and you won’t be blue

Think of the worlds famine
Can you imagine
How well off you are
Do you not care?’

It’s not that easy and quick
Can’t just flick a switch
If only it was
Cured by fairy Dust

Depression is the worst
Feels like You are cursed
There’s no where to run or hide
As it forces it way inside

It sucks out your life
And you see nothing but pain and strife
Feel you are about to drown
As it pushes you down 

It’s never ending
Completely mind bending
It’s hated and unwanted
Yet it remains....undaunted

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