Realisation
Last night for the first time
I really felt afraid
Suddenly it occurred to me
How difficult were these days
Simple little tasks now
Are starting to really cripple me
How long will I have
How hard is it going to be
The reality has hit home
Quite a sobering thought
A deep sense of dread
This realisations brought
How will it feel
When I can no longer work
What will I do
when I can only shake and jerk
What will life be like
When I need everything done for me
Long days doing nothing
When I'm no longer free
Trap by a body
That I can no longer control
If I loose my freedom
Then I will loose my soul
I recall hearing the news
When Robin Williams took his life
I remember feeling resentful
He committed suicide
But now, well, I don't know
I'm no longer sure
Will I be able to face this
Knowing that there's no cure
Will I be able to live
Just to please everyone else
Or will I just give in
And end this fight myself
I write about the war
The battle I fight each day
Up until now though the end
Seemed a long way away
But last night, well I lay there
Unable to control the tremor
And the tomorrow that never comes
All of a sudden is closer than ever.
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Hello Mandy...
Sometimes, we have to think what we're thinking about...
The thoughts we have reaches out further than we can we see...
What goes out comes around...
Like words speak life or death...
Positive and negative never equals a positive...
Let the weak say they are strong let the poor say they are rich...
Best wishes and blessings!
Great and sad write!
Thank you for sharing...
Hugs...
sparrowsong
Thank you x your words are as beautiful as the mornings chorus. This morning the birds were singing especially loudly, so leaned over and looked out of my curtains and I was greeted by the most beautiful sun rise. Funnily enough I have never noticed this before ever. I thought how beautiful it was and yet I'd never seen this miracle . No wonder the birds were so joyftul and loud. Then these words came to me xxx
I depends if you believe
I know not everyone does
But it's something I was raised with
And I'm glad of that now because
There have been many times
When I have struggled to always cope
And like most it's only then
I turn to God for hope
And some how he manages to get across
What he wants to say
And I know its him helping me
In some strange sort of way
I feel a warmth inside
An unusual sort of glow
And I hear a voice echo in my head
And somehow I just know
Last night for the first time
I really felt afraid
I wondered if I was strong enough
And I closed my eyes and prayed
Something woke me up
And I I'm not really sure why
But I opened up my curtains
And saw this beautiful sky
It took my breath away
As I saw this for the the first time
How had I never seen before
Such a wonderful sight to find
Then I heard him say
This is how you'll cope
Because I will be with you my child
So never ever give up hope
Mandy xxx
this is a beautiful place, visited by beautiful and talented people. I could lose myself reading poetry all day. I am so glad I found it and such lovely new friends like you sparrowsong.
you have no idea how much your comments mean to me and how much they help xx
thank you x