Reclaiming Identity

I do not belong here
In this place of self doubt
Where I have no self worth
My control has been ripped away
Not by you, or anyone else
But by me, because I let you strip me
Of my shameful identity

Not yet did I know who I was
Or even wanted to be but still,
I gave all of myself to you,
Putting my soul in your hands
My mind into the idea of us
My heart grasped onto what could be

Forever love you, I will always
Constantly thought of, never will I stop
Years months weeks and days
That is the time I’ve spent
Yet none of it makes any sense

You are seen and thought about
Any and every which way
I look, I turn, I want, I yearn
I beg and plead to all and none
Rid me of this lifestyle

I belong someplace else
In a place with self worth
Where I have no self-doubt
Someplace that gives me control
Not over you or anyone else
But over me, because I won’t let anyone strip me
Of my beautiful identity