Reflection

I have an irrational fear. 
I know you won't understand. 
You'll never catch me in a mirror. 
Never staring at myself.
Facing my reality.
Facing my identity. 
I hate who I am. 
I can't ever look for long. 
I look down at the sink. 
Never looking into my own eyes. 
Falling into the dark abyss 
I can't withstand it. 
You may think it's funny. 
You can call me names,
But I don't look at myself in mirrors. 
Because I hate who I am.