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I have submerged into this empty pool 
Broken my ankles falling down 
I lay there 
I thought I was ready to swim 
Thought I was ready for water 
To stay afloat 
Surging pain rips through me 
Like lightning to a car 
Electrifying me in every piece 
Every bit 
Setting me on fire 
Like a fallen tree in the woods 
No one knows 
I am burning 
My depression naps 
Turn into depression showers 
And putting that word in front of everything I do
Because that’s everything I am 
I lost the trail of crumbs 
I started where I was 
I’m lost 
I was doing so well 
On my way to the candy house 
Waiting my faith 
Of living sweet 
Care free 
And I only find myself eating crumbs 
I hate them 
I hate the woods 
I hate the trees 
I hate everything 
I hate me 
I was doing so well 
Turing the forest into a savannah 
Not caring if the sand scorched my toes 
Only caring for the sun 
To be free 
Not being covered my everything above me 
Wanting the sun to run all over me 
And hoping 
It would be me feel brighter 
 I hate the trees