Restless

Every day I stay up late

I decide every night if I leave my fate

But I just sit there removing those constant urges

I just say to myself don't worry darling soon the answers you want will emerge

So I just put a fake smile on every day

Waiting for these scars to fade away

I wont just give up without a fight

Until I have finally had enough I will search for that spark of light

This darkness can keep me caged and eating me alive

But this little light in me will still thrive

I dont need your worthless pills or arms around me

Because none of that bull shit will break me free

So dont you go telling me you love me and you will help me through this

Cause all you do is shove pills down my throat hoping me to crawl out of this abyss

Does it look like its working how you wanted it?

Why can't you open your eyes and see this is bull shit?

But theres no point on trying to get it through your head

But I'm sure you will understand when you are dead