Rules you need to follow before talking to a girl like me.

1. The first impression is always the real one: I am wary, naive and so easy to break.
2. The second impression is a mask I am wearing to keep bad people away from me, for some unknown reason it doesn't seem to work, but at least I look strong and confident. And I might even seem mysterious and somehow interesting.
3. I don't like talking to people. They make me nervous. I am so self-conscious and my flaws so perceptible.
4. If I smile at you, it means I haven't been wary enough. When I say "smile" I am not talking about the mask I reserve for people. No, that smile isn't a mask. It's my stupid self who is just happy to see you because your presence means something, because YOU mean something in this crowd that makes me want to shrink.
5. If you mean something to me, it means your soul is pure gold,you are magic to me. Your freaking presence makes me smile, do you realize just how meaningless it should have been ?
6. Don't tell me I am beautiful. No, It's not fake modesty. The thing is that I wish I was a faceless body. I wish my soul took the place of my face.  I wish this face was a mask. So please, don't tell me I am beautiful, because the naive person will believe you, even thought  my scars and dried tears still remember how the fall hurts. I still haven't learned how to fall. 
7. I dont want it to be long, so please pay attention: don't laugh with me and tell me how intelligent I am, don't tell me how intriguing I am, don't tell me you want to know me, don't tell me I am incredible, don't tell me you're impressed, don't tell me that even tired I am gorgeous, don't tell me how  sensual and aerial you think I am, don't talk about books and litterature and philosophy and make me feel special to you.
If there's one thing you need to remember is this : don't make me feel special. 
8. Don't make me feel special. 
9. I should have given you this before you broke every single rule.
10. Just let me in my world.
11. Let me be this banned forest, dark and scary. My nature isn't beautiful but I have learned to live with it. So don't make me feel as if I was an undiscovered wonder of the Antique World.
You are an ocean, you push and pull. You pulled me and now I am trapped. You didn't even pushed me. You just told me you were with the sun. You've been together for years now and I am just a forest you discovered and wanted to know. But in my forest, we don't need you. My insecurity and my soul look at the stars and the moon, and their perfetion gives us the illusion to be a part of it.