Running From The Past

~Im a stranger to affection
I love but I have never been loved~

Love is sparse like the hair on my head
Its presence is rare at times unfair
The pain is more than I wish too bear
The consequences im ashamed to share
But how can one deny whats so clear
Never thought love would be one of my fears
Now that it is I avoid it like spears
Arrows hurt and cupid isn't real
Learned from experience and watching my wounds heal
That nothing is just what your eyes reveal
There are dimensions that one could only feel
Now tell me why it is my love you want to steal

~Im a stranger to affection
I love but I have never been loved~

My biggest problem is not loving  myself
Its effects have taken hold of my health
Mentally I blame it on my wealth
When my decisions have done nothing to help
Physically I am overwhelmed
Lost in a parallel realm
Where I battle demons underspell
People, that I know very well
The difference from a friend is hard to tell
Especially when your senses fail
That road is dark and full of traps
I been down it before and refuse go back, Hell no

~Im a stranger to affection
I love but I have never been loved~

All I need is affection
Sex is used as a weapon
I dont want to hurt you
But I cant provide you protection

~Im a stranger to affection
I love but I have never been loved~