Sacrifice

sensations of hate love and nervousness course through me
shaking violently
chest is on fire
heart attack on its way to greet me
eyes dry and bulging from my skull
skin peeling and hitting the ground
what the fuck is wrong with me?
am I dying?
my hair is falling out with unmatched speed and rhythm
the drums pound in my skull and take me to the next level
cloud 25 is my destination
9 is the number of humans I must sacrifice
13 sunflowers rocking in the wind
looking at the sun for help
leaves falling out
blood trickeling down the stem
the flower has life beyond measure
more life than we will ever see
slitting the throats of goat
tearing at your flesh
your body is my canvas
bathed in blood
madness taking hold
death gripping its cold clammy fingers around my chest