sad

I cry to myself sometimes.
I lie to myself sometimes.
I pick myself up and try harder sometimes.
Today I just cry.

When will it get better? I ask myself.
When will this get easier? I ask myself.
When will I be happy? I ask myself.
Today I just close my eyes and hope.

Today I feel sad.
Today I feel empty.
Today I feel unwanted and unloved.
Today I feel glad that I kept myself alive.

I reach out my hand.
I hope someone will take it
And pull me from the depths of my own mind
So I can be free of this neverending pain.